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Wow

Wow, so. . .  long time no talk huh? As I say in every updated entry, so much has been going on I dont even know where to start! Well let's just do some pre-writing subjects :

i'm having a beautiful little girl Nadia Alice Martinez

i havent had the baby shower yet, but i plan on it being around the beginning of november, so if any would like to visit and wish me luck, i'd appreciate it!! because i'll be needing all the luck i can get!

i am in a very happy relationsip, one month yesterday as a matter of fact w/ mr. Steven Vastag. rawwr!

senior life is pretty much amazing, and no shit, it is really going so fast! haha

other than that, OH and i'm getting the internet here pretty soon, so i will probably get a new xanga w/ the whole mommy theme and what not. eh, blah. and keep that up to date for you all, especially w/ beautiful pictures of Nadia.

Umm . . hmm . . later!

Baby...

Ahhh! So... for those of you who have heard, and are not sure if it is true or not . . . I AM going to be a mommy.  I find out tomorrow what it is going to be . . so perhaps I will update with the news.

Everything is pretty much going good . . . Everything is out in the open now.

Comment! ...(Sorry, it has been so long, I dont even know what to write about, even though so much has been going on in my life. BUT! update . .  I may be getting the internet back at home, so you  may be seein more entries! ya!)

...\\\\....oh ya, i might be getting up a new xanga, what do you think? ..any xanga name ideas?

®ebeckaaa .. . . aka..mommy!

SO...

So a bunch has been goin on  . .  I'm pretty happy.  There have been some bumpy parts, but oh well . . .who doesn't have them? All I'm really worried about is my family, relationship, and . . . . my belly. Not necessarily in that order, but that is just a list.

I'm thinking about doing a layout for xanga again. . . remember? I'm thinking a summery spring edition perhaps? Yaaa. ... prolly.

As for the job situation . .. I now despise Big Boy. So . .. I put my two weeks in on sunday. . . or was it saturday? Either day, I quit. And I got another job already, so I hope that goes well . ...

I'm really trying to stay positive . . I think I'm doing a pretty good job, given the situation. All I hope is that my J stays positive w/ me. I know things have been so hard for him lately and it isnt the best time for us, but I know that he'll get through it . .. like he always does.

Ahhhh. I'm so excited.

Leave some I guess . . . .

Miss ®ebecka

This is so hard . . . . .

..... I'm sorry to everyone I have/will hurt. I'm not myself and I know I'm not the person I SHOULD be.  . . . I'm just so sorry about everything...

"mommy"